ok, I havent used this thing in forever because I have my livejournal but live journal crashed this afternoon! ah! so here's an entry that was suppose to go in my livejournal hours ago, can't make it through the day without babbling :)

According to this article I read at the doctor's office (where I had to wait for like an hour so they could tell me oh yeah you have a cold of the flu or something... sleep, drink soup) blue's the best eye shadow shade for me. Kind of 6th grade dontcha think? But it reflects my mood at least. I dont <3 being sick one little bit. It's hailing and foggy too lol it reminds me of that scene in some old movie where the girl's like "I always cry when it rains." and the guy's like "Baby, it rains <i>because</i> ; you're crying." *lost in thoughts of old movie romances* lol so let's see what I've accomplished the last 2 days... watched a west wing marathon... watched a law and order marathon... ate like twice... mel called to remind me that the nac's having the time of their life in dc, and like in all honesty Im wicked excited for her, I just wish I was thereeee :( lol maybe in my dreams Ill be the next lindsay but right now the real lindsay and company are being treated to a fabulous weekend in my favorite city. speaking of being a super leader, Ive found this program called the national youth leadership forum (www.nlyf.org) which I am SOO going to. delegates have to be selected by a teacher so Ive got a little sucking up to do, no problem. This program's so amazing, they have a week dedicated to medicine, another to technology, another to government and military, aaaaaaand best of all: LAW!!! oh yes indeed Im going junior year. So I've been working on my new workshop too. I want to present it at LEAD. only thing is, it has to be presented at the state level first and the state conference has been moved to like 3 days after the deadline for the LEAD forms... no worries, I'll make it work. I need to find a co-presenter for this too. I know a bunch of SLTP kiddos who would be outstanding, but it has to be someone from lil RI :( I mean there are some great little student leaders here, but to present this workshop well I really need someone with a certain attitude... So I worked on a scene for SLTP too. to was like a lot more difficult emotionally than I thought it would be. It's really tough to take an issue close to the heart and put it on paper. I <3 staff though, I sent out an email about how like it's def. tough to write this play and within half a day I get like 5 emails back. hmm it kinda sounds like Ive gotten a lot done but honestly I feel sooo like useless and dead and the majority of my time was spent asleep. oh well... stay healthy my friends <3

:D fun day today... for the most part... it seems like weekends have permenantly become entertain the kiwi bird day... but that's ok for the time being, evan and I might actually get along if we werent cousins... now we just drive each other crazy. so the whole bunch of us went up to boston today... man how crazy.. there was a game tonight... go red sox woohoo.. yeah... pretty sure they won lol.. I wish I understood baseball. we had a fairly good time.. had some awesome italian food and cannollis on the north side.. contemporary art museum was a little too um unique for my taste... I really cant see the artistic quality in like a couch covered in trash.. but to each her own. I saw a BMW motorcycle... it was the funniest thing... I mean seriously.. any guy who can pull off looking cool on a motorcycle probably isnt old enough to afford a BMW... I mean if I saw some old man ride off on it it so would have made my day.. but I was told I was insane for overanalysing it so... heh.. they were probably right. So came home and didnt do much.. pretended to reread eyes on the prize.. talked to pete for awhile... made a midnight run to wendys :D but I have the best news.. I might ::fingers crossed:: be going to Philly! how awesome huh? I know RI isnt part of the Ben Cup.. but our amazing FA buddies in the states running it say we can go. So that would be unbelievably cool. Now comes the begging the parents stage.. I think they're going to give in :D then I just have to find a roommate because I dont really want to stay alone lol... kristi, alyss, jane? anyone up for a weekend in pa? :D that would be cool if we could all get together again.. Ive missed u guys soo much since the summit... Ive missed everyone.. I need another dose of FA. Speaking of Freedom's Answer... looks like our state wide candle light shindig is going to come together... it's going to require calling in a lot of favors but it looks good right now. now we just have to keep pushing to sign up those schools... dont know what I would do without some of the amazing NLC kiddos... alright bedtime for me... soccer in like 6 hours...

current mood: ecstatic

current music: oldies station.. "It's in his kiss" 8)

hmmm... mr hopper can be quite insightful... "Dreams are the place where we do the things we dare not believe because if you truly believe in them they will become reality. So remember dream big and you shall live larger." so... what if I really do want these dreams to come true... well parts of them... I had the craziest dream last night... and it seemed so so real, every second of it. but like some parts of this dream were awesome, some were so weird... and some were random... who has a dream about building houses... I mean really... hmm yeah... Im digressing So timotio here's my question... if I dream it, does that mean I really cannot handle it becoming a reality... even if I feel like I would do anything for part of my dream to come true? hmm... I need to go back to my 8th grade days of studying dream analysis...and figure out why in the world I was in a bathroom crying my eyes out and pete was sitting in the shower... figure out the symbolism in that my dear dream guru...

current mood: fairly content

current music: white houses.. surprisingly... lol read back a few entries...

aww.. big shout out to Timmy from SLTP... he so made my day :)... other than that, my day kind of sucked. Strangely enough, I was way excited about the first day... even at 4am when my summer reading was like half done, I was still laughing... mostly because of pete saying ridiculous things and a lot of caffeine, but whatever. My schedule was soooooooo screwed up u have no idea. I'm contemplating dropping AT... for a combo of reasons... but after an insightful chat with miss corrina I might stay with it... in any case I have about a good 4 weeks before guidance will deal with it... good enough seeing that I owe Mr Guertin a coffee before I can go anywhere near that office lol. Freshy day went so well... the chinese food courtesy of mr mitchell was a nice touch... as was getting to eat it in his air conditioned office ::big smiles::... just to let u all know... Mr Dave Goodnow used the principal's private bathroom... lol he's little too proud of that... and the whole cologne incident... ::sigh:: dave u make me chuckle... eric and I made it through about 5 minutes of that day without wanting to kill each other... it was seriously a record... Im suffering from a bad case of summer sickness... it feels like home sickness, but worse, because u cant drive back to summer :( It makes school seem even worse. I just want to have like one more awesome summer day... who am I kidding... I want like a few more years of those relaxing days...::sigh:: nine months till summer 2005.... woo hoo...oh well guess I can look forward to the alaska trip... I hope that works out... I would be so excited, get to see everyone from FA again and all... even thought winter in alaska doesnt sound fun.. well until next time...

current mood: summer sick :(

current music: Thriller... heh gotta love "I love the 80s night"...

funny story time.. :) lol... so I get out of the shower.. ahh dont picture it lol... and this song which Ive never heard before come on the radio. So my ears are full of like beach water, shower water. And I hear a few words here and there and Im like omg! This song is all about me! It totally reminds me of something... lol um... no... Perhaps one lone line... I come onto mi wonderful computadora (which is officially named "Sarah's rock your socks off computer" for those of you who do not know") and google the lyrics... lol here's the song... trust me.. when my ears aren't full of water I totally dont relate as much.. but none the less the story amused me (I put the lyrics I heard the first time in bold..)

White Houses ~ Vanessa Carlton

Crashed on the floor when I moved in
This little bunk alone with some strange new friends
Stay up too late, and I'm too thin
We promise each other it's til the end
Now we're spinning empty bottles
It's the five of us
With pretty eyed boys girls die to trust
I can't resist the day
No, I can't resist the day

Jenny screams out and it's no pose
'Cause when she dances she goes and goes
Beer through the nose on an inside joke
I'm so excited, I haven't spoken
And she's so pretty, and she's so sure
Maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her
The summer's all in bloom
The summer is ending soon

It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses

Maybe I'm a little bit over my head
I come undone at the things he said
And he's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt
I sneak into his car's black leather seat
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy, we're going way too fast
It's all too sweet to last

It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses

My first time, hard to explain
Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
On a cloudy day, it's more common than you think
He's my first mistake

Maybe you were all faster than me
We gave each other up so easily
These silly little wounds will never mend
I feel so far from where I've been
So I go, and I will not be back here again
I'm gone as the day is fading on white houses
I lie, put my injuries all in the dust
In my heart is the five of us
In white houses

And you, maybe you'll remember me
What I gave is yours to keep
In white houses
In white ho
In white houses

funny funny... well 4 days left now guys... Im going to miss this summer so much... back to the summer reading and then a few hours of sleep before soccer practice... until next time...

Current mood: amazing

Current music: Girls just want to have fun (they just wanna.. they just wanna..)

:DWhat an awesome last weekend of summer... Day off from soccer today so I got to sleep in until like 10:30... you have no idea how happy that made me. Then I dragged myself out of bed and pete and I went over to Goddard park. It was soooo hot today, so we hung out at the beach for awhile.. and were attacked by hungry crabs but whatever... still good... then we went over to Starbucks and worked on our wonderful summer reading... oh man I hate those books with a passion... Yeah... so then after pete was attacked by my family... poor pete.. :(we headed off to waterfire. What an awesome time... lol except for the gondala guys maybe... So tired... and for those of u who dont know my kiwiw bird cousin's here so tomorrow is entertain evan day... I voted to just give him fay but I was over ruled and therefore we're going to spend the day at block island... should be interesting to say the least... well off to bed I go... ::sigh:: Im going to miss summer so much...

 Current Mood: ridiculously happy (courtesy of an awesome day and a mini latte)

Current Music: oooo baby I love u with.. everyday.. idk the name.. some song on the Delilah show